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hari kasih sayang, katanya

Bagi gue, setiap hari sama spesialnya atau sama biasanya, it depends on you. Date is just a number, the one who face it, decides.

Akhirnya, gue melakukan suatu hal yang cukup penting, menurut gue, di liburan kali ini.

Sebagai salah satu member club CARES di kampus gue (LSPR CARES merupakan suatu club-atau yang biasa dikenal UKM-di LSPR yang bergerak di bidang sosial), gue hari ini mengikuti acara yang bertajuk (((bertajuk))) L.O.V.E - Living to Share Happiness with Love, a Love to Build a Dream On. Maksud dari acara ini adalah berbagi kasih sayang di hari spesial untuk adik-adik kita di Rumah Kita yang didirikan oleh YKAKI (Yayasan Kasih Anak Kanker Indonesia) yang berada di Jakarta.



Banyak, banyak sekali, pelajaran dan kenang-kenangan yang bisa gue ambil dari acara ini. Acaranya simple dan sederhana, intinya, kita ingin membuat mereka merasa sedikit terhibur. Bukan, bukan karena kita merasa lebih hebat, lebih kuat, lebih sehat (abaikan statistik dulu ya?) daripada anak-anak di Rumah Kita ini, tapi karena we would really like them to know they are all loved, so all the things we brought to them earlier today, those lil' happiness might encourage them to keep their spirit on to living their life to the fullest, happily.

Pertama-tama kita diperkenalkan dengan YKAKI itu sendiri, tentang Rumah Kita dan tentang Sekolah-ku yaitu sekolah untuk anak-anak yang terkena kanker agar bisa tetap belajar seperti anak-anak lain pada umumnya. Rumah Kita sendiri merupakan rumah singgah bagi mereka yang ingin berobat di Jakarta dari luar daerah, di rumah ini terdiri dari beberapa kamar yang membuat 6, 9 atau 12 tempat tidur untuk anak-anak yang terkena kanker dan orang tua masing-masing.

Selanjutnya, anak-anak tersebut mulai turun, berdatangan ke hall Rumah Kita dan lanjut kita bernyanyi bersama-sama. Gue yang emang pada dasarnya sangat cengeng dan gampang tersentuh, langsung berkaca-kaca. They sang happily, padahal anak sekecil mereka harus menanggung penyakit seberat itu.

Adik-adik ngumpul di hall Rumah Kita

Setelah bernyanyi-nyanyi, ada beberapa games untuk mereka, yang tujuannya tentu seperti yang udah gue bilang sebelumnya, ngehibur mereka. Gue bisa ngeliat mereka tertawa lepas ngeliat temannya memeragakan gaya untuk ditebak. Ada yang marah juga karena kakak pembina di tim lawan ngebantuin diem-diem, hehehehe. Tapi mereka semua kawan! Keliatan banget, semuanya saling sayang satu sama lain, saling support, saling membantu dan akrab banget :)

Gue sempet manggil satu anak disitu untuk duduk dipangkuan gue, namanya Romansyah, kelas TK 0 Besar, waktu gue tanya cita-citanya apa, dia bilang "Aku mau jadi petugas pemadam kebakaran." Gue tanya kenapa, kata dia "Biar keren." :)) seneng banget bisa berinteraksi sama mereka, Romansyah juga cerita kalau dulu dia pernah ngga bisa jalan, rambutnya botak dan bulu di tangan dan kakinya rontok habis di kemo, dia nyeritain kayak gitu santai aja, gue yang diceritain udah berkaca-kaca. Ngeliat Romansyah tadi sore udah bisa lari-lari (dia yang paling aktif!) dan rambutnya sudah numbuh lagi, cuman bisa membuat gue bilang "Alhamdulillah. Semoga dia tetap sehat." dalam hati.

Foto sama Romansyah! Yang paling aktif! :)

Setelah itu, ada acara yang kita namain Menggambar Cita-Cita, kita percaya, mereka semua mampu menggapai cita-cita mereka yang tadi udah mereka gambar. Ada yang pengen jadi dokter, polisi, pemadam kebakaran, model, dll. Ini sebagian foto-fotonya.

Gambar cita-cita dibantu kakak-kakak dari LSPR CARES.

Akbar, mau jadi polisi.

Setiap anak, tanpa terkecuali, berhak memiliki cita-cita.

Siti, mau jadi dokter, katanya. :))

Yoan, waktu ditanya kenapa mau jadi model, dia jawab,
"Aku senang difoto."

Acara ditutup dengan sebuah nyanyian yang mereka bilang "mars" untuk mereka, Jangan Menyerah - D'Massiv, ngga pernah gue nyanyi atau dengar lagu ini semerinding itu. Mereka nyanyi, orang tua mereka nyanyi, gue berkaca-kaca. They seems tough, even when I know mereka bisa aja menyerah. Tadi gue sedikit bercakap-cakap sama salah satu orang tua dari anak-anak itu, beliau bilang "Dari Amanda, Siti dan Aditya, Aditya yang paling lemah. Harapan hidupnya hanya 40%. Tapi itu kata dokter kan ya, Mbak? Saya percaya ada kuasa dari Sang Pencipta." gue mengangguk, mengiyakan, berdoa untuk Aditya, Amanda, Siti, Yoan, Akbar, Romansyah, Ibnu, Adnan dan semua anak-anak kuat yang ada di Rumah Kita tadi.

Aditya dan Amanda. Cepat sembuh, sayang :)


LSPR CARES members and officers with Adik-adik Rumah Kita!




"Tuhan pasti kan menunjukkan
Kebesaran dan kuasanya
Bagi hambanya yang sabar
Dan tak kenal putus asa.."

Selalu bersyukur. Selalu bersyukur. Selalu bersyukur.

teruntuk pria kesayangan.

it's been 4 years yet it still feels like the very first day.

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i don't know what to say, i'm not that kind of person yang bisa merangkai kata-kata indah.
dari kemarin malem ngga bisa tidur. ngga tau kenapa..
di pikiran udah banyak banget, banget! hal-hal yang mau diomongin tapi pas coba untuk tulis di notes handphone selalu stuck. tulis, hapus. tulis, hapus. gitu seterusnya sampe jam 2 pagi.
sampe akhirnya memutuskan untuk mendengarkan beberapa lagu dan akhirnya nangis sendiri. hehe, kebiasaan.

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i know from the very first time i heard the news, right when it hit me, i know losing you will never be an easy thing for me. untuk diterima. untuk dijalani.

but yes, surprisingly, it's been 4 years. without you around. without your hugs and kisses. without your voice, not even a smile. time flies, so fast. and here i am, still writing a post for you, holding my tears.

i've been, we've been, through this 4 years. smiling, crying, crawling, falling, dreaming, doing everything without you. kadang suka marah sendiri. you supposed to be here with me! you supposed to be here, always! with me! with us! tapi rasanya itu juga kurang ajar, kurang bersyukur dan kurang ikhlas sama keputusan Tuhan. karena apapun yang terjadi memang harus diikhlaskan, baik dan buruk, for me, for us, untuk siapa aja.

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padahal intinya cuman mau bilang; "aku super kangen dan super sayang sama ayah." kok susah yah ngerangkai kata-katanya?

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yaa Allah, ampunilah dosa-dosanya, kasihanilah ia, lindungilah ia dan maafkanlah ia, muliakanlah tempat kembalinya, lapangkanlah kuburnya, bersihkanlah ia dengan air, salju dan air yang sejuk. bersihkanlah ia dari segala kesalahan, sebagaimana Engkau telah membersihkan pakaian putih dari kotoran dan gantilah rumahnya di dunia dengan rumah yang lebih baik di akhirat, serta gantilah keluarganya di dunia dengan keluarga yang lebih baik di akhirat dan pasangan di dunia dengan pasangan yang lebih baik di akhirat. masukkanlah ia ke dalam surga-Mu dan lindungilah ia dari siksa api kubur dan siksa api neraka.
yaa Tuhanku, ampunilah aku, ibu dan bapakku. kasihinilah mereka keduanya sebagaimana mereka berdua telah mengasihiku di waktu aku kecil.

amin, amin, amin.

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3 Desember 2009 - 3 Desember 2013

if i really am an alien, i could be the happiest one.

here it goes the messages from people around me...

RIRIE CANTIK, ADEKKU YG GENDUT DAN MENGGEMASKAN. SEMANGAT BELAJARNYA YAAAA!!! JANGAN LUPA MERAYU TUHAN, SHOLAT PUASA SEDEKAH. SEMOGA USAHA SELAMA INI UNTUK LULUS UN DAN MASUK FISIP UI BERHASIL! AMIN XOXO - cici citra

dear riri yg kata orang orang cantik... SEMANGAT BELAJAR YAAA! semoga lulus UN, keterima FISIP UI, lancar segala-galanya. hwaiting!!!! - cici shasa

ci ririe yang gendut dan sok imut semoga nanti masuk FISIP UI - ayyis

semangat toriana cantik, cantik, dari hatimu. semoga lancar dan dapetin hasil yang terbaik. - kak isal

dear riri yg cantik. kak faris mengucapkan selamat menempuhkan ujian. semoga dapat mengerjakan soal dengan baik dan mendapat nilai yang bagus, tidak lupa semoga kamu cepet dapet pacar - kak faris

jakarta, diponegoro 2012.
ririe yang oke... semangat ya... rajin belajar, ibu doakan bisa masuk FISIP UI. amin... - take care & love, bu tety h.

riri yg cute and cantik, semangat.. semangat ujian dah diambang pintu. lulus harus dgn nilai baik. FISIP UI sudah menanti... - bu indri

riri c... mau masuk FISIP UI kan??? so... lo tau kan mesti gimana? - pak hari

ririe yang pra cantik, semangat ya buat snmptn nya entar, semoga loe bisa masuk fisip ui! cayoeah - bintang

berilah yang terbaik untuk Allah SWT, maka Allah SWT akan memberikan mu yang terbaik. masih ada berbulan-bulan waktu buat lo, make the most of it. see you in UI, rie! - afafci

FISIP UI for ririegembrotbuntelankapas - nadya

SEMANGAT TERUS YA RIIII! FOKUS TERUS, FISIP UI NUNGGUIN LOOOO!!! - aqila

ririeee semangat ya buat uan dan snmptnnya! harus belajar ga boleh males, biar bisa masuk FISIP UI dan kita semua 100% lulus ga ada yang tertinggal amin!!!!! - belle

ririeeee cantik sipittt semangat belajar ya!!!!! biar masuk FISIP UI. harus rajin2 biar semua yg di inginin tercapai. biar ga nyesel nantinya. biar banggain tante maryani. harus semangat jgn males2, pokoknya smangat titikkk!!!!! =D - attaya

triana ramadhona my best sist, harus ttp rajin ya belajarnya, semangatnya ngga blh kendor! pasti bisa deh ririe msk fisip UI trs lulus UN 2012. jgn perduli alang-alang rintangan yg menghadang! ttp semangat yah! salam super :$ - rifqi

ririe yg baik bgt, semangat ya belajarnya supaya ntar bisa masuk FISIP UI sama lulus UN! - caesar

pintu UI udah kebuka untuk lo, ga sopan kalo lo ga masuk. 3 tahun sekolah lo bosen didatengin ama lo, makanya lo buruan bagusin nilai biar masuk UI karna UI butuh lo rie! - aulion, 17thn, penyemangat calon UI

ri, semangat belajar yaak, sukses terus ri, berjuang - rahim

ririe cantik semangatnya masuknya FISIPnya UInya ya terus lulus UN bareng gue juga. terus gue kece. trims... - nanditya kece ♥ rio dewanto

ririe donat yang suka sok kece. watermelon! semoga lulus UN diterima di FISIP UI =D -ditacantik

ririe bulet semangat FISIP UInya - magritha barbie ;)

ririe cantik, semangat FISIP UI - UN ya! - sharaalvi

FISIP UI BUAT YIYIH YA - rifaldi

FISIP UI BUAT RIRIE CANTIK - zahir

AYO! AYO! AYO! ayo rietik semangat. semangat ya ritik riri cantik biar masuk FISIP UI - aji♥

FISIP UI buat ririe, semoga lulus UN!!! arsenal juara ya... - ezra ganteng

ayo semangat ririe cantik masuk FISIP UI - evo

riri cantik, FISIP UI buat lo ya - adli

ririe cantik, masuk FISIP UI lo ya! ketemu gue! - farizkey

ririe gembul tetap semangat ya buat masuk UI - yudo

semangat ka riri unyu. ketemu di dipo lagi ya!! -ismi

semangat ririe cantiks buat FISIP UInya!! sukses!! - fariz

semangat kak riri chibi!!! nanti kita ketemu di UI!!! - anin

kak riri cantik semoga lulus UN dan masuk FISIP UI ya!!! - dimas

buat ririe good luck UNnya! - tantyo :)

FISIP UI :* muah amin! - najib

ririe tembem seluruh badan semangat FISIP UInya - ridwan

ririe cimol bandung, harus semangat buat masuk UI - oman

ririe cantik, jangan lupa sholat biar lulus UN dan masuk FISIP UI. amien =D - ana

ririe yg imut dan cantik, semoga masuk FISIP UI and keep spirit! - imam pp

ririe cantik! semangat, FISIP didepan mata! UI! - haikal

ririe bakpao yang semok semangat buat masuk FISIP UI dan lulus juga... - ummay

ririe kece semangat UN dan masuk FISIP UI. amin :) - meuthia aira

ririe cantik semangat yaw!! - saddan

ririe bule cantik FISIP UI SEMANGAT - ♥yukikato :)

ririe endut!! semangat ya buat masuk FISIP UI mudah-mudahan masuk. amin... - leni

FISIP UI you can girl, keep spirit ririe endut! - dio

ririe cantik! semangat ya belajarnya semoga masuk FISIP! harus masuk ya! - putriaprilly

ririe semangat ririe semangat biar lulus UN sama dapet FISIP - rao

ririe bundar! semangat. pasti masuk FISIP UI. ok bundar - nindi manis

kita masuk UI bareng! semangat ririe buat FISIP UI - danu

ririe cantik, sexy dan galau jangan lupa belajar dan doa!!! - damar handsome

FISIP atau makin gendut?! semangat riiie :D - mus

ririe sexy semangat ya UANnya!! bisa masuk UI jurusan FISIP!! - fatimah :D

ririe cantik, sexy, kece, semangat pasti masuk FISIP. ok!!! - gita

ririe sholat jangan 1 menit lagi! lebih lama bisa kali.. biar balance. otak super, cantiknya, body proposional, tinggal ibadahnya menyerupai sempurna. hwaiting! - fitri

ririe ramlan yang cantik sexy bohay, semangat yah UN dan masuk FISIP UInya. i know u can dear - saa

ririe yang baik, imut dan lucu, susah dan senang tetap senyum :) wey semangat! harus masuk FISIP UI - fathia

ririe pasti masuk FISIP. semangat ya kk cantik!!! - boy

ririe cantik dan bulat, semangat terus belajarnya untuk menghadapi UN dan bisa masuk FISIP UI. aamiin. - intan & windy

ririe bundar, semangat ya.. FISIP UI - UN!! - cut

ririe yg supel =) semangat UN trus FISIP UI ya!! - dika

sampe ketemu di UI, amiin.. =) - mke

syahriri, keep spirit ya UNnya sukses!! FISIP UInya pasti!! jangan lupain gue - mr daffa

ririe cantik, imut, semangat!! you can do it!! masuk FISIP UI + UN. cahyo girl!! - anka

and here is one message that made my eyes teary, from my dearest woman of all the world,
Ya Allah ...
Patrikan pada hambamu keyakinan
Bahwa anak kami akan melewati ujian ini dengan tenang
Bahwa anak kami akan mampu melewati titian berikutnya
Bahwa anak kami pasti akan menemukan kondisi akhir terbaiknya
Bahwa kami dan anak kami siap menerima segala takdirmu
Setelah kami dan anak kami berusaha sekuat mungkin
Apapun keputusanMu Ya Allah ...
Kami yakin akan ada hujan hikmah buat kami sekeluarga
Ya Rabb, beri RIRIE kemudahan dalam mempersiapkan segala sesuatu untuk menjalani Ujian Sekolah dan Ujian Nasional nanti.
CIUM SAYANG MAMA DAN PELUK ERAT MAMA SELALU BUAT RIRIE. I ALWAYS LOVE YOU.

there's nothing i could say, but, thank you all.

Deep condolences

Time flies.
Another good friend has been called by Allah SWT.
Even I don't know you personally, rest in peace, Ratasha.
This morning, I woke up earlier.
I prayed subuh and couldn't back to sleep anymore.
I was so bored. and suddenly, I saw Aqila in recent updates on BBM, and when I read that and I was so shocked. Yeah, another youngster has passed away.
In January, a youngster also called by Allah SWT, and also in February, few weeks ago.
God, they're still young.. but then, I realize that our time in this world is a mystery, indeed. One thing so sure, our life isn't that long.
Them.. who has been called by the God almighty, has remind me of one thing, the source of where we come from and have to go back, Allah SWT.
It might be my turn, your turn or whoever's. Death scares me a lot, but well, better we prepare before it's too late, right?

Ps. Give millions hug to my Daddy up there ok?

Sweet sixteen!

Hello December 12th. So, today's my birthday. Firstly I thought there wouldn't be something special because I actually also didn't expect anything on my birthday. But I'm totally wrong! My family and friends really made my day. 3 surprises + 2 cakes + 9 cupcakes + much greetings + much wishes = there's no reason why I don't put my big smile today. :D.
I'd like to give my first thank you for the Almighty God, Allah SWT. Thanks God for bless me all the way since 5840++ days ago. Really, there's nothing that make me stay until now but your bless. :).
Secondly, I'd like to thank my family for everything you gave me today, even when since I born to this world. My mom, brother and second sister gave me surprise this morning, they gave me a delicious chocolate cheesecake. We prayed together this morning and I felt so happy at that time and feel blessed. In the afternoon, my first sister gave me 9 super cute cupcakes. It was... really... cute... I even don't want to eat that because it's too cute really. Thank u, Mom, Sisters and also Brother. Hey Daddy, what's up there? Watch me so happy today? Wish you were here, my prayers always with you, Dad. :).
Thirdly, I'd like to thank my favorite guys. Some part of 4th. They gave me super sweet surprise. Woohoo. After my family gave me a surprise, they suddenly came to my house and yeah, I was so shocked and so happy! They really made my day. I didn't think they would give me surprise, it was nice guys. Thank you once more, Afaf, Aqila, Belle, Bintang, Qd, Icha, Fuad, Rifqi, Rizky, Hasbi, Admir. I really hope so that Taya would come but she's now in Puncak, and also Nadya but she has to go to Bandung because she had family event there, I miss you both Uni and Cici. :).
Fourthly, I'd like to thank my twins! Haha kd. I'd like to thank Raynaldi, the also birthday boy today. So much jokes we share today, Ray. Wish you also have a great + gorgeous + awesome year. Cheers for 12! :).
Fifthly, I'd to thank all my friends who gave me greetings and wishes by message, BBM, twitter and also facebook. I was so glad and happy. This I'd like to mention some of them, Nadya Taya Rifaldi Fandi Ovien Rahma Juven kakMitha Age Allia Tessa Niko kakFinda Alifa Deya Bella Prita Dita Fardin Xisi Jovita Danu Wiga Tasya kakSherly Abhiyan Liza Dimas Jagad Lindsey Dio Rendy Nanda Kian Igor Novita Randy Syifa kakIsal Mentari Dinda Fuad Shaquille Caesar Dity Indira Abel Windy Ghea Dhita Magritha Shamaya Fara Raisya Fanesya Miam Shara Nadiya kakFanesya Jeje Filza Adianti Tantyo Dian Titha Ibri Niniez Tami Fanya Vanya Malisa Damar Dara Bintang Fatih Mima Putri Maria Nata Tari Andhika Radit Najwa Firman Irma MadeDipen kakNadia Mimi Avissa Dita Okke Aldy Safanna Ardi Dhana Aria Ezra kakMail Tara kakArin Ian Sisy Devi Agita bigTyo Bella Laudy Tomi Ramzy Ali Cute Dedik Anna kakSakura and many more on Facebook that it's impossible to mention them one by one. Your greetings and wishes are really mean to me. :).

Here some photos I'd like to post!


Really don't know what to say you know, today's so awesome and gorgeous. Thank God for making this so great. I love you God, I love you my Family, I love you Friends. HUG.

:)


Family is where I finally come back when I feel there's nothing sane left outside.
They always have the best place on my heart.

Notes to Daddy in heaven

14 June 1938 - 3 December 2009
Always in our deepest heart, beloved Daddy in heaven.
I miss you, and I love you, Yah.
Forever and always.

Hugs and Kisses, Ririe.

Sad things :(

My deep condolences and prayers goes to all victims of large flood in Wasior, tsunami in Mentawai, the volcano eruption of Merapi. Rest in peace, for sure God blesses and loves you, people. Also, be tough for everyone there, life's going on. It's so sad to hear the news. Please protect this country, God..

I hate me for being afraid to tell you this directly and just write it down on this blog and let my tears out while writing this.

I know being you isn't easy. I know being a single parent with 4 children who haven't married yet is hard, or maybe I don't know how hard it is but I can feel it. I know you have a big responsibility. I know I'm more selfish than you. I know I'm more bad than you. I know you're better than me. I know you're older than me. I know you have understand me a lot already. But please, this is ain't easy for me too. If you need someone to share, share with me, I know I'm still young but you have to know that even I can't solve your problems all the way, at least I can give you a warm hug. I hate to see you cry or even when you show me your sad face. I just want being needed sometimes. I'm here, please, realize, Mom.. :-(
Ps: I love you.
Lots of love from your daughter,
♥R.

Photoshoot(s).


My favorite guys in every way.
I have to say, I don't heart the wrong guys.


Our 2 days work.
Don't say this as playground-ers work, I've already said so :-/


Hello, you. Really, this is your way to ignore me? By acting like I don't ever exist to your life? How pathetic you are and I am for still hoping too much from you. I miss you anyway :'o


Sorry for being sensitive lately.
Sometimes best friend have their own way to show how much they care. Gahaha.


Thanks for accompany me via BBM this recent days, Kiddo.
You're the best to play with.

Daddy, I love you.

On my previous post, I talked a bit about my Daddy.
Before I tell you about him, he passed away on 3rd of December 2009.
It was the day that I cried a lot as I lived on earth, you know the feeling was like you lose your half soul. Someone that really mean to my life has gone away, to meet up the almighty God, Allah SWT.

The last day I met him.
It was the BIGGEST regret day ever after to my life. I didn't take him to the airport, he wanted to do the heart surgery at KL, Malaysia. The last night before, I watched TV on my parents room and he wanted to sleep so I decided to go to my own room, before I go, he made a joke and it kinda make us laughed out loud, I even still remember the voice of his laugh.

The last conversation on the phone.
I was just said, "Ayah kapan pulang? Aku kangen.." but what I can hear was a sob. And it made me cry. He answered .. "Ya, Ayah juga kangen.." That was the first time he tell me that he miss me (well, I'm crying now) we didn't talk a lot, what an idiot of me.. I wish I could turn back the time.

The last night before the day.
Everything was going so well. The surgery was doing so fine and good. No bad feeling at all. After I slept with my brother at my room, I sent my mom some voicenote, so do my brother. Mommy said they will go back to Indonesia at 13th of December and then I was going to sleep. No nightmare at all.

The day.
I woke up. I saw my phone, Mommy told me to pray for my daddy when I slept, I didn't even awake or hear my phone. Really, I hate being me at the time.
Before I went to school, my uncle called my home. My sister picked up the phone, she was so mad and shouted "APAAN SIH!" I felt so terrible and really don't know what to do.
When I walked to the car, Mommy gave us some message.. "Innalillahi.."I just like.. I can't describe the feeling. I cried a lot, I hugged my sister and brother. I feel so terrible and what I wanna hear at that time is just "Na-ah Triana, we'm lying!".

The night when I picked up them at the airport.
Everyone just keep on silent. We still can't believe anything.
I picked up my mom. When we met, I immediately hugged her, reinforcing but still can't say any word. My mom's face was like a woman who lost her life passion, soul mate.
Arriving home, my mother fell down. I assured her along with other friends of her. After a bit of calm I rushed to see my dad.
Rigid. Yes.. a rigid body. But his lips was smiling. What a peaceful and happy smile.
I could not hold back my tears. But there was like a whisper coming from I don't know somewhere said "Do not cry, daddy don't like it!" I wiped my tears and kissed my dad and hugged him tightly.

The funeral day.
Amazingly me, after the night was over, not so many tears until I returned home after the funeral. When I saw the body of my dad, my heart like arrows, but on the other hand there is my logic said I should wholeheartedly accept that my daddy have to go. I chose
my logic. Yes, daddy have too many tears that brought him up to the bosom of God Almighty, but I stated, I must take him with a smile.

Now.
It's hard indeed to live without a dad, like him. Many things I haven't show him yet. Too soon he was gone, but I'm sure, up there, he always see me and encourage me to keep moving forward.

Note for Daddy at heaven.
Dad, sorry if until now I still crying before bed because I miss you. Sorry if I still rarely pray to complement your life there. Sorry if I still can't completely keep mom just as you did. Sorry still often lazy to learn and play more. But promise me, as time goes by, I can feel your smile from heaven for me. Big love, kisses and hugs for you, everything's going fine here as you see there.

Our last new year's eve.
Your dearest daughter, R

Thinking to throw you away from my mind.

The last previous post..
Well, I think I should erase that. the one that i mean there being so 'ewh' lately. he's kinda make me feel like "omg,yeah he's cute,he's cool, he's charming but whatsoever there are more minuses than the plus on him" moreover, my friends told me lots of negative opinions about him. Firstly I don't really care for what they say but as time goes by he's so.. Ah,can't describe it. but as you know, forgetting someone isn't as easy as saying.
And you have to know..on tuesday I met him,my ex crush:p and it kinda wow,amazing universe!!how can I meet him when I supposed to not,it kinda the most 'unexpectable' thing of the week.
Ah boys you're just so irritating me.a lot!!well,I'm still young and don't have to really care about it.

♥R

L-o-v-e: I just need 3 characters.

It's 11:19 and I have nothing to do.
3rd post of today, well, gonna be a super unimportant post I guess.
I'm missing someone. I don't know why or when this feeling start to growing up.
When I looked upon your face for the first time.. I don't even can describe the feeling.
You're handsome, everyone admit it. but it's not about your face or physical,
it's all about your gesture, your move, your expression, your style, your grin, I just love to see it all.
That all combined so well, almost perfect. You're so quite and mysterious.
It's hard for me to reach you, or indeed you're unreachable?
Am I crazy or falling in love? This feeling is growing so weird as time goes by.

Girlfriends: cheers.

Bored. decided to post more than one entry today.
Now, I'd like to tell you about my girlfriends.
I wanna tell you in 2 part. Junior High School and Senior High School.

Part 1: Junior High School.

That pretty girls are definitely mine ;-p Na-ah, kidding. Call them, Twister Sisters.
From left to right: Belle, Me, Aqila, Afaf, Taya. They're just like the charger of mine, if I have to boost my mood up because of the sucks reality, I should meet them, share and talk a lot about life. We talk about everything! from the important one until the most absurd one. and even now we don't go to the same school again, we still can mix up together. It's amazing how they can make me laugh when I don't even want to smile.

Part 2: Senior High School.

That they are(minus Shara, Dinda and Vanya)! The girls above are Dity, Magritha, Me and Dita. Dinda and Vanya are my seniors but they're very nice to me. What I have to say about them? They're my savior at school, I even can't imagine how if I haven't have them, the worst school time ever(when I was in 1oth grade) will be through by tears. I thank God for having them(really this is from the deepest of heart). Let's pray for Dinda and Vanya for their next year national examination and cheers for the rest :-)

♥R

New class: new spirit.

Here I am again now. and I'd like to tell y'all about my new class: XI SCIENCE I.
My first impression about them: I'll have another bad year of school.
I cried a lot and whined to my mom about them, how boring they're at the first and how I wanna move to another class.
but as 3 weeks since the first day of new grade the first impression of mine about them is amazingly disappear. As the proverb says, "Don't judge a book by its cover.", I definitely agree with them. They're all nice and fun! with Mrs. Lina as the main teacher and
Damar as the very wise yet so fun leader of the class, we'll go on through this grade.

On Thursday, we took some photos to fill out wall magazine, the theme is about 17th of August, the independence day of Indonesia (I'll post the photos soon!). and here are some photos of us:


Chair-mate: Dita Wijayanti.


Freak-est boy in class, Rizky.


Took some photos on Japanese Class. Arigatou, Sensei!


Here is the XI SCIENCE I guys.

♥R