teruntuk pria kesayangan.

it's been 4 years yet it still feels like the very first day.

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i don't know what to say, i'm not that kind of person yang bisa merangkai kata-kata indah.
dari kemarin malem ngga bisa tidur. ngga tau kenapa..
di pikiran udah banyak banget, banget! hal-hal yang mau diomongin tapi pas coba untuk tulis di notes handphone selalu stuck. tulis, hapus. tulis, hapus. gitu seterusnya sampe jam 2 pagi.
sampe akhirnya memutuskan untuk mendengarkan beberapa lagu dan akhirnya nangis sendiri. hehe, kebiasaan.

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i know from the very first time i heard the news, right when it hit me, i know losing you will never be an easy thing for me. untuk diterima. untuk dijalani.

but yes, surprisingly, it's been 4 years. without you around. without your hugs and kisses. without your voice, not even a smile. time flies, so fast. and here i am, still writing a post for you, holding my tears.

i've been, we've been, through this 4 years. smiling, crying, crawling, falling, dreaming, doing everything without you. kadang suka marah sendiri. you supposed to be here with me! you supposed to be here, always! with me! with us! tapi rasanya itu juga kurang ajar, kurang bersyukur dan kurang ikhlas sama keputusan Tuhan. karena apapun yang terjadi memang harus diikhlaskan, baik dan buruk, for me, for us, untuk siapa aja.

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padahal intinya cuman mau bilang; "aku super kangen dan super sayang sama ayah." kok susah yah ngerangkai kata-katanya?

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yaa Allah, ampunilah dosa-dosanya, kasihanilah ia, lindungilah ia dan maafkanlah ia, muliakanlah tempat kembalinya, lapangkanlah kuburnya, bersihkanlah ia dengan air, salju dan air yang sejuk. bersihkanlah ia dari segala kesalahan, sebagaimana Engkau telah membersihkan pakaian putih dari kotoran dan gantilah rumahnya di dunia dengan rumah yang lebih baik di akhirat, serta gantilah keluarganya di dunia dengan keluarga yang lebih baik di akhirat dan pasangan di dunia dengan pasangan yang lebih baik di akhirat. masukkanlah ia ke dalam surga-Mu dan lindungilah ia dari siksa api kubur dan siksa api neraka.
yaa Tuhanku, ampunilah aku, ibu dan bapakku. kasihinilah mereka keduanya sebagaimana mereka berdua telah mengasihiku di waktu aku kecil.

amin, amin, amin.

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3 Desember 2009 - 3 Desember 2013

Konser Cinta Beta: Glenn Fredly

Hai!

Gue mau cerita tentang sesuatu yang.. kalo-ada-yang-lebih-keren-daripada-kata-keren-i'll-use-that word. Yes, it's KONSER CINTA BETA, persembahan 17 tahun Glenn Fredly berkarya untuk musik Indonesia. It was held on Sept 2, 2012 at Istora Senayan, Jakarta. (karena daya ingat gue ngga terlalu baik, maka akan gue ceritakan seingat gue ya, kalo ada salah urutan, harap maklum :P)

Konser Cinta Beta adalah konser pertama gue selama 17 tahun 8 bulan hidup... Sebenernya gue ngga terlalu suka berada di suatu keadaan dimana gue harus berada sama orang-orang banyak di satu tempat. Tapi demi Glenn, gue rela :') dan gue ngga nyesel, sama sekali :')

Dibuka dengan stand up comedy oleh Pandji, gue pikir bakalan garing gitu (hehe, sorry brad!), ternyata doi sukses bikin satu Istora ketawa! Setelah itu, kita se-Istora diajak untuk nyanyi Indonesia Raya. Merinding totalitas! Gue belom pernah nyanyi lagu Indonesia Raya sama orang sebanyak itu. Gue terharu, bagaimana Glenn, dengan caranya dia, bisa mengajak orang-orang jadi lebih sedikit nasionalis.

Setelah nyanyi Indonesia Raya, Glenn Fredly, si bintang utama, akhirnya muncul! Sederhana, dengan topi khas-nya dia itu, yang bikin gue selalu bertanya, "Rambut dia tuh kaya gimana sih?" Hehehe. Dibuka sama lagu Happy Sunday. Langsung petjahhh deh Istora.

Setelah opening beberapa lagu itu, Glenn mulai menunjukkan sisi romantis dari konsernya, Pantai Cinta, sebelum nyanyi, si Glenn bilang "Ayo peluk yang bisa di peluk, gue sih pelukin tiang aja!" HAAAA! fyea, Glenn! *pelukin tas*

Romantisme hilang, tema berganti jadi super sendu... Sedih Tak Berujung, Tega, Terserah, Pada Satu Cinta, dibabat sama si Glenn, Istora jadi semacam punya koor dadakan, penonton cewek di sebelah gue udah mulai teriak "CUKUP GLENN, CUKUP!" Gue ngerti perasaan dia, gue pun sedemikian merasa di pelonco melebihi ospek kampus gue dengerin Glenn bawain lagu-lagu itu. Setelah tema gegalauan itu habis, Glenn dengan santainya bilang, "Masih baik-baik aja kan semuanya?" MASIH KOK, GLENN! :))

Glenn di konsernya juga ngajak musisi-musisi keren lainnya kolaborasi, yang pertama ada Endah n Rhesa dan Sandhy Sandoro, mereka ber-empat bawain lagu Let's Say Love, apik sekali permainan mereka! Habis itu ada Melto Pasto, Bayu Risa, Matthew Sayerz dan Rayen Pono bawain lagu Tersimpan, sambil joget-joget ala boyband lucu banget hahaha dan diakhiri dengan kalimat, "Jadi musisi jangan coba-coba lipsync ya!" HAHAYEAA #teamGlenn!

Penonton mulai bertanya-tanya siapa selanjutnya teman kolaborasi si Jong Ambon satu ini, ternyata muncul Indra Lesmana, bawain lagu Warna, permainan doi gokil berat sob! Habis itu, ngga gue sangka dan bayangkan sebelumnya, tiba-tiba muncul sosok Fariz RM, ohyeahhh, bawain lagu Terindah, legend! *hormat*

Habis Fariz RM, dari kegelapan, muncul Tompi!!! Yeah!!! Mereka ngebawain Hikayat Cinta, sontak satu Istora dibawa gegoyangan sama mereka, gokil, emang Tompi ngga ada matinya deh!!! *senyum lebar*

Abis kolaborasi sama musisi-musisi tadi, penonton diajak gegalauan lagi, cewek sebelah gue udah mulai letih nampaknya ketika intro dimainkan dia bilang, "Apa lagi, Glenn? Mau apa lagi?" Gue cuman tertunduk, sambil mengangguk setuju dengan pertanyaan cewek itu, dalam hati. Januari dan Sekali Ini Saja, KYAAAH, PETJAAAHHHH. Hafal, Glenn, hafal semuanya sama lagu galau kamu, kita hafal, Glenn!

Setelah gegalauan, Glenn serasa membawa kita dalam suasana Indonesia bagian Timur. Glenn sempat menitikkan air mata selesai nyanyiin lagu Suara Kemiskinan, gue yang emang pada dasarnya mushy udah berkaca pas denger lagunya. Indonesia harus bangkit, rite bung Glenn? :')

Kasih Putih, Kisah Romantis, Cukup Sudah dan Akhir Cerita Cinta juga ngga lupa dibawain dan dijadiin closing untuk konser Cinta Beta malam itu. Glenn menyampaikan rasa terima kasih dia untuk semua penonton yang menyempatkan hadir, dia sempet bilang, "Gue tau besok hari kerja. So? What the F, man?" :P

Setelah closing, Glenn pamit. Penonton pun bergegas keluar, udah hampir jam 12. Gue agak sedikit kecewa karena lagu yang paling gue tunggu; You're My Everything ngga dibawain sama Glenn, tapi gue tetep seneng parah karena konsernya keren parah!!! :D :D

Di jalan menuju parkiran, tiba-tiba Glenn muncul di panggung yang emang udah ada di parkiran itu, bawain lagu Dansa Yo Dansa! Woohoo, Glenn! What a surprise extend show! Dia bilang, "gue sengaja disini karena pengen mengantar kalian sampe pulang!" Woagh, what a kind man he is. Abis itu Glenn bawain Good Times, dan seakan bisa membaca pikiran gue dan penonton lain, HE CLOSED THE SURPRISE SHOW WITH YOU'RE MY EVERYTHING! Langsung jadi koor dadakan, dan ter-romantis deh itu parkiran Istora! :')

Overall, band-nya SUPER keren (yang baru gue sadar, ngga ada backing vocal sama sekali!), "cerita" dari konser itu keren, lightingnya berkelas, untuk sound gue ngga nemuin cacat-nya. The concert was so amazing, I lost words, Glenn Fredly is a total brilliant musician that Indonesia, even world, ever had. He wasn't only sing on that night, banyak sekali pesan tersurat maupun tersirat di konser itu. Dan, yang bikin gue lebih geleng-geleng kepala, konser ini konser tanpa sponsor, dan sukses berat, I didn't see any space left on tribune nor at festival! Penuh! Petjaahh! Indonesia must be so proud to have you, Glenn. Thank you so much for your beautiful performance. BETA CINTA SE! :)))

Sekian, terima kasih. #dukungterusmusikIndonesia

Oh! kekurangannya cuman satu dari konser Cinta Beta: pacar gue. *tinju lengan Glenn Fredly*

*photos will be on the next post*

maybe this could be one of the most touchy post i've ever made..

gue gatau hrs mulai post ini pake apa. tp ada baiknya mungkin dgn assalamualaikum~~

kata org2 kebanyakan, masa putih abu-abu adlh masa yg paling menyenangkan. well, tdnya gue ngga percaya sm kata2 itu. sm sekali. selama tahun pertama gue sklh pake putih abu-abu kerjaan gue cmn meratapi nasib "kok bs gue disini sih???!!!" sambil nangis.. asli, ini ngga lebay.

hari2 awal gue sklh terasa bagaikan di neraka (hahaha lebay deng kl yg ini..) hampir setiap hari plg2 langsung nangis msk ke kamar.. hati gue sangat tercabik2, cielah. untunglah akhirnya gue menemukan teman2 dr kls berbeda yg alhamdulillah pemikirannya sejalan sama gue... akhirnya jam istirahat (dan tentunya jam pulang!!!) adlh jam paling dinantikan sm gue.

sampailah gue sampe ke tahun kedua.. msh inget bgt gue pas hari pertama msk ke kls dua, pulang2 gue lgsg duduk di kursi ruang tengah trs nangis senangis2nya. gue wkt itu berfikiran "astafirullah sampe kpn ini penderitaan berakhir???!!!"

doa gue terjawab di hari kedua gue masuk di tahun kedua.. kita skls mulai pdkt2 bercanda2an, mulai ada yg menunjukkan sifat aslinya, mulai pd bodoh2an... di hari ke brp tepatnya gue lupa, akhirnya gue bersyukur punya temen sekelas kyk mereka, XII IPA-1.

hari2 gue di SMA mulai membaik. hidup jadi terasa lebih indah~~ (backsound: lebih indah by adera). gue semakin deket sm tmn2 beda kelas gue itu dan tmn sekls gue jg yg makin hari makin unyu.

perjalanan SMA gue yang sesungguhnya pun dimulai dari situ..

mereka adlh manusia2 baik yang Allah swt kasih ke gue, gue sangat-sangat-sangat bersyukur pernah sama-sama mereka 3thn kmrn itu.. gak kebayang gmn kl gue ditempatin di tempat lain sama Allah swt, gue ga akan ketemu sm mereka, ga akan dpt manusia2 baik itu jd temen2 gue. dengan sifat gue yg super manja, rewel, suka ngerepotin, bawel, super moody, dll (iya! iya! gue akuin emang gitu!), mereka super sabar tetep mau jadi temen gue huhuhuhu baik bgt kan mereka??!

mereka ngajarin gue banyakkkk bgt hal2 yg gue yakin ngga pernah bs gue dptin di tempat manapun. mereka secara ngga langsung ngajarin gue untuk selalu bersyukur, sabar, simpati dan empati sm orang di sekitar gue, mandiri, kuat dll..dll..

gue msh inget bgt wkt sekelas XII IPA-1 nyanyi lagu kangen-nya chrisye diiringi dgn gitarnya cute/dio gt lupa HEHE, that was kinda effing sweet.. msh inget kl gue udh mulai ngantuk, lemah, lesu, letih di kls tb2 dedik/cute suka ngegebrak meja trs langsung teriak "RIRIE SEMANGAT! RIRIE SEMANGAT!" dan diikuti sm tmn2 sekelas........ya gmn gakmau melek lg cb O_O, trs msh inget jg tb2 ada cicak di tas gue (gue jg bingung knp itu cicak bs ada di tas gue woi!!!) trs gue teriak kaget trs mereka lgsg pd panik hahahhahahaha bodoh ya... msh inget jg waktu gue supergalau krn sebongkah lelaki kamseupay, mereka pd nyemangatin (dan ngecengin!!!) trs daffa lgsg siap jd pendengar setia gue huhuhu knp kalian sweet bgtsih? trs apalg ya...kl pelajaran kosong kita suka curhat2an trs ketawa2 brg sekelas, suka nyanyi2 apapun yg bs dinyanyiin, bercanda2, pantun2an, nyuri2 waktu biar ngga belajar (HEHEHE), terus saling nyemangatin kl lg ada yg knp2..... dan kita supersuka main surprise2an (sampe ada seksi surprise loh kelas ini), surprise in pak hari guru super kesayangan itu dan bu indri wali kelas kita, anak2 sekelas lainnya hahahhaa kelas ini tuh heboh sekali deh intinya. dan... mereka yg selalu nyupport dan percaya kl gue bs ngedptin apa yg gue cita2in wkt itu, sm mereka gue sll ngerasa dihargain, selalu ngerasa dipercaya, selalu ngerasa ngga sendirian ngadepin apapun. ahhh jd sedih deh dan msh byk lg moment2 yg ga akan bs gue dptin kl gue msk ke kls/sklh lain, gue bersyukur sekaligus senang sekaligus bangga pernah punya mereka as my classmates.

kalo sama kepompong lain lagi ceritanya... krn kita beda2 kelas (kecuali gue sm dita), jd kita ketemu kl lg istirahat dan pulang doang, tp ttp aja sm mereka byk bgt hal2 sweet... my highschool sweethearts, yang otaknya pd gesrek semua, catet ya.. semua! kl bel istirahat bunyi, gue keluar kls, menunggu mereka di koridor, trs kita ke kantin bareng, beli apa aja yg mau dibeli trs cus lg keatas, duduk lesehan di koridor trs kita mulai gosip apa aja yg bisa digosipin... dan ngisengin siapa aja yg bs diisengin. es batu dr teh manis lah dimasukin ke baju-___- trs es teh manis disembur2in, air dr wastafel diciprat2in sampe koridor becek, ngambil2in bekel orang, narik2in kunciran orang... dan msh byk lg hufff. kl pas pulang sklh biasanya kita duduk di pinggir lapangan, ngelakuin apa aja yg bs dilakuin, mainan kuteks lah, ngisengin dan ngegosipin orang (ini 2hal yg beneran gbs terlepas...) dll dll.. kl diinget2 itu semuanya bikin senyum2 sendiri loh. sm mereka gue diajak naik metrominilah apalah, tp gue jd tau kaya apa kehidupan di jalanan sesungguhnya, cielah. yang paling gue inget... pas si poconggg jd bintang tamu di career day angkatan kita... krn kita termasuk yg suka bercanda2 sm kepala sklh gt akhirnya kita ngerayu buat minta foto sm poconggg dan dibolehin wkwkwk jd pas doi udh dtg kita lgsg ngikutin kpl sklh msk ke ruangan mulmed trs foto2... trs dr luar terdengar kebisingan, pd iri ternyata muahahhahahahahhahahahaha maap yee cyin. OIYA!!! ini yg paling hrs diinget... kita pernah bela2in sampe jam 1malem bertandang di FX buat... NONTON SMASH!!! muahaha detailnya bagaimana dan kaya apa... gakusah dilanjutin lah, cukup Allah swt, kita, yg wkt itu nonton, dan SMASH aja yg tau T_T well, yg paling suka dr asas persahabatan kepompong, asikkk, adlh kita gak trll mau ikut campur urusan pribadi msg2 dan kl kita gaksuka ya kita blg jd insyaAllah ngga fake, intinya kita sahabatan for fun, kl ada mslh ya kita cerita2 tp yaudah sebatas ngedengerin dan ngsh saran, selebihnya tsrh yg mutusin, seru kan?;;) banyaklah kl diceritain semua ga akan abis2 ini hahaha intinya gue supersyg sm kalian lohh, pomps.

moment2 seangkatan jg gabakalan gue lupain... REFUGIO 2012. PRA-TripObservasi, inget gaksih kita tuh ngerjain nametag+tongkat sampe magrib2 gt??dikatain angkatan tempe, ayam sayur, apalah gt wkwkwkwk. trs pas TripObservasi, itu seruuuuu bgtbgtbgttttt, dusun tajur, yang pas malem2 api unggun kita dinaungi "Halo"..inget??itu sweet loh... trs pas kita kls 2, ada acara berantem2an sama anak kls 1-nya wkwk tp somehow itu menurut gue, yg bikin angkatan kita makin solid loh yagaksiiii?hahahaha. trs ga brp lama kita ke Kampung Naga!!!!!!!!! aaaa... itu satu2nya kampung yg mungkin ga akan gue lupain seumur hidup, kl pas TripObservasi kita msh ada kaka klsnya, kl skrg udh pure cmn satu angkatan dan kita jd bebashhh hahahaha good moment.. trs kls 12 yaa, TryOut sampe butek, sampe otak udah mendep, sampe stress ga karuan hahahaha, terus gue jg ikut bimbel, NF, sama bbrp anak angkatan gue, ezra aji billy ibnu syifa euis nindy siapalgya, biasanya gue ditemenin ezra aji billy ibnu dulu kemana kek jajan2 dulu baru masuk kls hahaha... belajar (hrs ditambahin -belajaran) sampe jam stg8 muahahaha :')) doa bersama di masjid, muasabah berkali2, hari terakhir kita belajar sblm UN, kita rame2 bikin acara dadakan, idenya bermula dr malemnya kan anak2 NF pd intensif tuh sampe malem nah pulangnya kita mau bikin acara buat guru2 sbg tanda terimakasih REFUGIO buat mereka, akhirnya paginya ngumpulin duit buat patungan dll, dan acaranya super sukseshhhhh, guru2 pd nangis terharu dan saya pun jg menangis... gak terasa, 3taun udah hampir mau selesai. sampe akhirnya UN!!! kyaa.. hari terakhir kita UN gue inget bgt, keluar kls gue langsung teriak saking ngerasa beban gue keangkat...dan pd teriak2 seneng jg. yaiyalah cuyyy. stlh bbrp bulan dicekokin soal2 sampe map soal jebol berkali2 akhirnya bebas jg... gaklama sls UN, kita ke Jogja satu angkatan... itu. seru. bgt. sumpah. tp yg paling diinget sih wkt ke malioboro, mendung, ujan2an haahahahaha sampe eskrim yg gue beli ancur jd sop eskrim. dan.. malam terakhir di jogja, kita ngumpul di tempat makan trs ngeliat video angkatan uhuuuuu itu sweet jg!!! stlh Jogja, ada pengumuman kelulusan dan... jengjeng... REFUGIO 2012 LULUS 100%!!! super bangga sama angkatan gue, dikrnkan stlh sekian lama AKHIRNYA di sklh gue kelulusannya 100%, bahagia banget... buat gue saat itu, kelulusan 100% adlh hal yg amat cukup dan patut disyukurin sama2. terakhir... kita wisudaan... akhirnya selesai jg status kita dr siswa bakalan jd mahasiswa. pas itu, gue ngebacain farewell speech buat mereka, jujur aja, pas bikinnya gue bener2 stuck, lost of insipritation, gue coba inget2 moment sm anak2 dan akhirnya ngalir aja gt dan alhamdulillah guru2 terharu :""') stlh itu, kita mulai mencar, berusaha buat nyari jembatan buat ngegapai cita2 kita. being part of them, was great, just great, because for me great is enough.

gak terasa ngetiknya, kok udh panjang yaa?hahahahhaa. intinya sih satu, ga akan lupa sama sekolah itu, sekolah yg ngasih banyak pelajaran, banyak nilai2 berharga kehidupan, secara ngga langsung sekolah itu ngebantu gue buat tau apa yg sbnrnya gue mau, jadi MC pertama kali disana buat acara PENSI pdhl gue baru 6bln sekolah disana, diksh kepercayaan dan itu ngebuat gue akhirnya sadar apa yg gue mau, sekolah yang dari yang punya sampe satpam temenan, ngga liat perbedaan, semuanya sama. sekolah yang secara ngga langsung ngajarin gue lebih percaya kalo Allah swt itu baik, selalu punya rencana yang ngga pernah kita tau. sekolah yang selalu percaya sama gue. itu aja buat gue udah lebih dari cukup.

...sampe akhirnya gue percaya, kalo masa putih abu-abu itu emang masa paling nyenengin, well, mungkin ngga paling, tapi masa putih abu-abu emang masa super nyenengin.

makasih ya semua, 3taun kemaren itu berharga banget buat gue. gak akan lupa sama kalian yg selalu baik sama gue. makasih ya...

see you when i see you, mates.

if i really am an alien, i could be the happiest one.

here it goes the messages from people around me...

RIRIE CANTIK, ADEKKU YG GENDUT DAN MENGGEMASKAN. SEMANGAT BELAJARNYA YAAAA!!! JANGAN LUPA MERAYU TUHAN, SHOLAT PUASA SEDEKAH. SEMOGA USAHA SELAMA INI UNTUK LULUS UN DAN MASUK FISIP UI BERHASIL! AMIN XOXO - cici citra

dear riri yg kata orang orang cantik... SEMANGAT BELAJAR YAAA! semoga lulus UN, keterima FISIP UI, lancar segala-galanya. hwaiting!!!! - cici shasa

ci ririe yang gendut dan sok imut semoga nanti masuk FISIP UI - ayyis

semangat toriana cantik, cantik, dari hatimu. semoga lancar dan dapetin hasil yang terbaik. - kak isal

dear riri yg cantik. kak faris mengucapkan selamat menempuhkan ujian. semoga dapat mengerjakan soal dengan baik dan mendapat nilai yang bagus, tidak lupa semoga kamu cepet dapet pacar - kak faris

jakarta, diponegoro 2012.

ririe yang oke... semangat ya... rajin belajar, ibu doakan bisa masuk FISIP UI. amin... - take care & love, bu tety h.

riri yg cute and cantik, semangat.. semangat ujian dah diambang pintu. lulus harus dgn nilai baik. FISIP UI sudah menanti... - bu indri

riri c... mau masuk FISIP UI kan??? so... lo tau kan mesti gimana? - pak hari

ririe yang pra cantik, semangat ya buat snmptn nya entar, semoga loe bisa masuk fisip ui! cayoeah - bintang

berilah yang terbaik untuk Allah SWT, maka Allah SWT akan memberikan mu yang terbaik. masih ada berbulan-bulan waktu buat lo, make the most of it. see you in UI, rie! - afafci

FISIP UI for ririegembrotbuntelankapas - nadya

SEMANGAT TERUS YA RIIII! FOKUS TERUS, FISIP UI NUNGGUIN LOOOO!!! - aqila

ririeee semangat ya buat uan dan snmptnnya! harus belajar ga boleh males, biar bisa masuk FISIP UI dan kita semua 100% lulus ga ada yang tertinggal amin!!!!! - belle

ririeeee cantik sipittt semangat belajar ya!!!!! biar masuk FISIP UI. harus rajin2 biar semua yg di inginin tercapai. biar ga nyesel nantinya. biar banggain tante maryani. harus semangat jgn males2, pokoknya smangat titikkk!!!!! =D - attaya

triana ramadhona my best sist, harus ttp rajin ya belajarnya, semangatnya ngga blh kendor! pasti bisa deh ririe msk fisip UI trs lulus UN 2012. jgn perduli alang-alang rintangan yg menghadang! ttp semangat yah! salam super :$ - rifqi

ririe yg baik bgt, semangat ya belajarnya supaya ntar bisa masuk FISIP UI sama lulus UN! - caesar

pintu UI udah kebuka untuk lo, ga sopan kalo lo ga masuk. 3 tahun sekolah lo bosen didatengin ama lo, makanya lo buruan bagusin nilai biar masuk UI karna UI butuh lo rie! - aulion, 17thn, penyemangat calon UI

ri, semangat belajar yaak, sukses terus ri, berjuang - rahim

ririe cantik semangatnya masuknya FISIPnya UInya ya terus lulus UN bareng gue juga. terus gue kece. trims... - nanditya kece ♥ rio dewanto

ririe donat yang suka sok kece. watermelon! semoga lulus UN diterima di FISIP UI =D -ditacantik

ririe bulet semangat FISIP UInya - magritha barbie ;)

ririe cantik, semangat FISIP UI - UN ya! - sharaalvi

FISIP UI BUAT YIYIH YA - rifaldi

FISIP UI BUAT RIRIE CANTIK - zahir

AYO! AYO! AYO! ayo rietik semangat. semangat ya ritik riri cantik biar masuk FISIP UI - aji♥

FISIP UI buat ririe, semoga lulus UN!!! arsenal juara ya... - ezra ganteng

ayo semangat ririe cantik masuk FISIP UI - evo

riri cantik, FISIP UI buat lo ya - adli

ririe cantik, masuk FISIP UI lo ya! ketemu gue! - farizkey

ririe gembul tetap semangat ya buat masuk UI - yudo

semangat ka riri unyu. ketemu di dipo lagi ya!! -ismi

semangat ririe cantiks buat FISIP UInya!! sukses!! - fariz

semangat kak riri chibi!!! nanti kita ketemu di UI!!! - anin

kak riri cantik semoga lulus UN dan masuk FISIP UI ya!!! - dimas

buat ririe good luck UNnya! - tantyo :)

FISIP UI :* muah amin! - najib

ririe tembem seluruh badan semangat FISIP UInya - ridwan

ririe cimol bandung, harus semangat buat masuk UI - oman

ririe cantik, jangan lupa sholat biar lulus UN dan masuk FISIP UI. amien =D - ana

ririe yg imut dan cantik, semoga masuk FISIP UI and keep spirit! - imam pp

ririe cantik! semangat, FISIP didepan mata! UI! - haikal

ririe bakpao yang semok semangat buat masuk FISIP UI dan lulus juga... - ummay

ririe kece semangat UN dan masuk FISIP UI. amin :) - meuthia aira

ririe cantik semangat yaw!! - saddan

ririe bule cantik FISIP UI SEMANGAT - ♥yukikato :)

ririe endut!! semangat ya buat masuk FISIP UI mudah-mudahan masuk. amin... - leni

FISIP UI you can girl, keep spirit ririe endut! - dio

ririe cantik! semangat ya belajarnya semoga masuk FISIP! harus masuk ya! - putriaprilly

ririe semangat ririe semangat biar lulus UN sama dapet FISIP - rao

ririe bundar! semangat. pasti masuk FISIP UI. ok bundar - nindi manis

kita masuk UI bareng! semangat ririe buat FISIP UI - danu

ririe cantik, sexy dan galau jangan lupa belajar dan doa!!! - damar handsome

FISIP atau makin gendut?! semangat riiie :D - mus

ririe sexy semangat ya UANnya!! bisa masuk UI jurusan FISIP!! - fatimah :D

ririe cantik, sexy, kece, semangat pasti masuk FISIP. ok!!! - gita

ririe sholat jangan 1 menit lagi! lebih lama bisa kali.. biar balance. otak super, cantiknya, body proposional, tinggal ibadahnya menyerupai sempurna. hwaiting! - fitri

ririe ramlan yang cantik sexy bohay, semangat yah UN dan masuk FISIP UInya. i know u can dear - saa

ririe yang baik, imut dan lucu, susah dan senang tetap senyum :) wey semangat! harus masuk FISIP UI - fathia

ririe pasti masuk FISIP. semangat ya kk cantik!!! - boy

ririe cantik dan bulat, semangat terus belajarnya untuk menghadapi UN dan bisa masuk FISIP UI. aamiin. - intan & windy

ririe bundar, semangat ya.. FISIP UI - UN!! - cut

ririe yg supel =) semangat UN trus FISIP UI ya!! - dika

sampe ketemu di UI, amiin.. =) - mke

syahriri, keep spirit ya UNnya sukses!! FISIP UInya pasti!! jangan lupain gue - mr daffa

ririe cantik, imut, semangat!! you can do it!! masuk FISIP UI + UN. cahyo girl!! - anka

and here is one message that made my eyes teary, from my dearest woman of all the world,

Ya Allah ...

Patrikan pada hambamu keyakinan

Bahwa anak kami akan melewati ujian ini dengan tenang

Bahwa anak kami akan mampu melewati titian berikutnya

Bahwa anak kami pasti akan menemukan kondisi akhir terbaiknya

Bahwa kami dan anak kami siap menerima segala takdirmu

Setelah kami dan anak kami berusaha sekuat mungkin

Apapun keputusanMu Ya Allah ...

Kami yakin akan ada hujan hikmah buat kami sekeluarga

Ya Rabb, beri RIRIE kemudahan dalam mempersiapkan segala sesuatu untuk menjalani Ujian Sekolah dan Ujian Nasional nanti.

CIUM SAYANG MAMA DAN PELUK ERAT MAMA SELALU BUAT RIRIE. I ALWAYS LOVE YOU.

there's nothing i could say, but, thank you all.

Deep condolences

Time flies.

Another good friend has been called by Allah SWT.

Even I don't know you personally, rest in peace, Ratasha.

This morning, I woke up earlier.

I prayed subuh and couldn't back to sleep anymore.

I was so bored. and suddenly, I saw Aqila in recent updates on BBM, and when I read that and I was so shocked. Yeah, another youngster has passed away.

In January, a youngster also called by Allah SWT, and also in February, few weeks ago.

God, they're still young.. but then, I realize that our time in this world is a mystery, indeed. One thing so sure, our life isn't that long.

Them.. who has been called by the God almighty, has remind me of one thing, the source of where we come from and have to go back, Allah SWT.

It might be my turn, your turn or whoever's. Death scares me a lot, but well, better we prepare before it's too late, right?

Ps. Give millions hug to my Daddy up there ok?

:)

Family is where I finally come back when I feel there's nothing sane left outside.

They always have the best place on my heart.

Kampung Naga

So, last Saturday I just back to the town from Kampung Naga. A super heavenly touch place that you'll ever visit. I went there with my 2012 friends or called them Refugio. It was so... FUN! No electricity at all, with so kind people there, I felt so comfortable to be there. The atmosphere was so fresh, no pollution at all. The access to go there was also unique, and so tiring but fun, we have to down stairs, 400 rungs. Haha, imagine that! I didn't feel any bad day there, everything was just so fine and fun, I enjoyed everything there. Kampung Naga is so recommended for people who love travelling and like to feel the fresh air, but not recommended for the spoiled brat, it will just ruin people's mood there haha just kidding.

Actually there are so many things to tell but I'm too lazy to type. I didn't take lot of photos

because my camera was having low battery -_- here a bit photos of me and my friends there.

Me and my team mate made how to purify the water in simple way.

My team mate.

Dity, Dita, Magritha, they rocks my high school life (minus Shara). Haha you know I don't have too much friends in school, thank God they save me.

Notes to Daddy in heaven

14 June 1938 - 3 December 2009

Always in our deepest heart, beloved Daddy in heaven.

I miss you, and I love you, Yah.

Forever and always.

Hugs and Kisses, Ririe.

♥

TO, 2010

As my promise, this is some photos of the Observation Trip 2010 held by Diponegoro 1 SHS.

The house. iya, itu kamar mandinya.. jamban. -_-'

Kakarutan, the guys who i lead of for almost a month.

Me at the house.

The most.. petakilan guy.

The scenery there was really breathtaking.

The TO itself.. hm, so tiring dan sangat menarik urat haha. tp ya, gataudeh gitulah pokoknya no comment. The team that I lead of, was disappoint me. gak tau terimakasih, gak kompak, gak tau sopan santun dan have no responsibility at all even for they own good. well, the thing that i underline, TO2009 WAS SO MUCH BETTER.

At last, ada satu hal sih yg buat gue sedikit merasa enjoy sama TO'10 ini, THE CREW!! PANITIA+PHB!! kk2 super cool super eksis super kece so gila dan so so over awesome haha! Good-job 3 harinya dan 4 minggu kmrn2nya. It was so nice to work together with you guys. Semangat kawan!! kapan2 dahsyat-an di lapangan lg yah ;;)

♥R

Photoshoot(s).

My favorite guys in every way.

I have to say, I don't heart the wrong guys.

Our 2 days work.

Don't say this as playground-ers work, I've already said so :-/

Hello, you. Really, this is your way to ignore me? By acting like I don't ever exist to your life? How pathetic you are and I am for still hoping too much from you. I miss you anyway :'o

Sorry for being sensitive lately.

Sometimes best friend have their own way to show how much they care. Gahaha.

Thanks for accompany me via BBM this recent days, Kiddo.

You're the best to play with.

Daddy, I love you.

On my previous post, I talked a bit about my Daddy.

Before I tell you about him, he passed away on 3rd of December 2009.
It was the day that I cried a lot as I lived on earth, you know the feeling was like you lose your half soul. Someone that really mean to my life has gone away, to meet up the almighty God, Allah SWT.

The last day I met him.
It was the BIGGEST regret day ever after to my life. I didn't take him to the airport, he wanted to do the heart surgery at KL, Malaysia. The last night before, I watched TV on my parents room and he wanted to sleep so I decided to go to my own room, before I go, he made a joke and it kinda make us laughed out loud, I even still remember the voice of his laugh.

The last conversation on the phone.
I was just said, "Ayah kapan pulang? Aku kangen.." but what I can hear was a sob. And it made me cry. He answered .. "Ya, Ayah juga kangen.." That was the first time he tell me that he miss me (well, I'm crying now) we didn't talk a lot, what an idiot of me.. I wish I could turn back the time.

The last night before the day.

Everything was going so well. The surgery was doing so fine and good. No bad feeling at all. After I slept with my brother at my room, I sent my mom some voicenote, so do my brother. Mommy said they will go back to Indonesia at 13th of December and then I was going to sleep. No nightmare at all.

The day.
I woke up. I saw my phone, Mommy told me to pray for my daddy when I slept, I didn't even awake or hear my phone. Really, I hate being me at the time.
Before I went to school, my uncle called my home. My sister picked up the phone, she was so mad and shouted "APAAN SIH!" I felt so terrible and really don't know what to do.
When I walked to the car, Mommy gave us some message.. "Innalillahi.."I just like.. I can't describe the feeling. I cried a lot, I hugged my sister and brother. I feel so terrible and what I wanna hear at that time is just "Na-ah Triana, we'm lying!".

The night when I picked up them at the airport.
Everyone just keep on silent. We still can't believe anything.

I picked up my mom. When we met, I immediately hugged her, reinforcing but still can't say any word. My mom's face was like a woman who lost her life passion, soul mate.

Arriving home, my mother fell down. I assured her along with other friends of her. After a bit of calm I rushed to see my dad.

Rigid. Yes.. a rigid body. But his lips was smiling. What a peaceful and happy smile.

I could not hold back my tears. But there was like a whisper coming from I don't know somewhere said "Do not cry, daddy don't like it!" I wiped my tears and kissed my dad and hugged him tightly.

The funeral day.

Amazingly me, after the night was over, not so many tears until I returned home after the funeral. When I saw the body of my dad, my heart like arrows, but on the other hand there is my logic said I should wholeheartedly accept that my daddy have to go. I chose

my logic. Yes, daddy have too many tears that brought him up to the bosom of God Almighty, but I stated, I must take him with a smile.

Now.

It's hard indeed to live without a dad, like him. Many things I haven't show him yet. Too soon he was gone, but I'm sure, up there, he always see me and encourage me to keep moving forward.

Note for Daddy at heaven.

Dad, sorry if until now I still crying before bed because I miss you. Sorry if I still rarely pray to complement your life there. Sorry if I still can't completely keep mom just as you did. Sorry still often lazy to learn and play more. But promise me, as time goes by, I can feel your smile from heaven for me. Big love, kisses and hugs for you, everything's going fine here as you see there.

Our last new year's eve.

Your dearest daughter, ♥R

Wish I could turn back the time.

Tanjung Aan, Lombok

Gili Trawangan, Lombok

Last vacation with my Daddy at Lombok.

I miss being there. more, I miss Daddy's tight hug =,(

Girlfriends: cheers.

Bored. decided to post more than one entry today.

Now, I'd like to tell you about my girlfriends.

I wanna tell you in 2 part. Junior High School and Senior High School.

Part 1: Junior High School.

That pretty girls are definitely mine ;-p Na-ah, kidding. Call them, Twister Sisters.

From left to right: Belle, Me, Aqila, Afaf, Taya. They're just like the charger of mine, if I have to boost my mood up because of the sucks reality, I should meet them, share and talk a lot about life. We talk about everything! from the important one until the most absurd one. and even now we don't go to the same school again, we still can mix up together. It's amazing how they can make me laugh when I don't even want to smile.

Part 2: Senior High School.

That they are(minus Shara, Dinda and Vanya)! The girls above are Dity, Magritha, Me and Dita. Dinda and Vanya are my seniors but they're very nice to me. What I have to say about them? They're my savior at school, I even can't imagine how if I haven't have them, the worst school time ever(when I was in 1oth grade) will be through by tears. I thank God for having them(really this is from the deepest of heart). Let's pray for Dinda and Vanya for their next year national examination and cheers for the rest :-)

♥R

New class: new spirit.

Here I am again now. and I'd like to tell y'all about my new class: XI SCIENCE I.

My first impression about them: I'll have another bad year of school.

I cried a lot and whined to my mom about them, how boring they're at the first and how I wanna move to another class.

but as 3 weeks since the first day of new grade the first impression of mine about them is amazingly disappear. As the proverb says, "Don't judge a book by its cover.", I definitely agree with them. They're all nice and fun! with Mrs. Lina as the main teacher and

Damar as the very wise yet so fun leader of the class, we'll go on through this grade.

On Thursday, we took some photos to fill out wall magazine, the theme is about 17th of August, the independence day of Indonesia (I'll post the photos soon!). and here are some photos of us:

Chair-mate: Dita Wijayanti.

Freak-est boy in class, Rizky.

Took some photos on Japanese Class. Arigatou, Sensei!

Here is the XI SCIENCE I guys.

♥R